i'm (so) over it..

i'm over it..
finally..

i can forget all of those stuff..
all about you..
all the things that used to be important to me..

it's all gone.
and i'm free now.
i can do anything without you on my mind..

i don't need to sing all of those pathetic songs..
and i would love to hear all of those happy songs..

i don't need to afraid to be anywhere around you anymore.
i don't need to be afraid to talk to you anymore..
i can even look into your eyes now.

cause i've relize..

there's better things to do..
rather than just sit down and think about how idiotic i am.
than just talking to my self about how much i regret all the things i've done to you.

and now i don't feel sorry about what i said..
i don't feel sorry about what i've done..

maybe i was wrong.
but i don't feel sorry about that.
i don't want to..

cause you got your own life.
and i got mine.
let's just mind our own life..
and just stay away from mine..

i don't need you to breathe..
i can do it my self..
i believe i can..

i've won this fight.
but i lost that war.
still,
i've won..
i've fight that feeling..
i've tried so many times..
finally it's worth the fight..

now i can laugh out loud..
i don't need to scream no more..

now i can go anywhere i want..
and not to be scared of meeting you..


i'll prove it..
i will.
promise..

observasi yang berubah menjadi jalan jalan..

hri ni.
tgl 19 feb 10.
kelompok ku mau survey buat observasi..
masalahnya..
kita juga gak tau siapa subyeknya..
jdi msi jalan" tanpa arah gitu..
klmpkku:
kezia
nadia
jeni
jabin
niko a
daniel
tp td daniel nda ikut..

ptama"..
kita kluar dari lingkungan sekolah..
dan waktu itu..
gerimiss...
pemikiranku : bukan saat yang tepat untk ujann.. GOD..

dari stece kita ke kiri..
ke arah malioboro..
uda mentokk..
belok kiri..

kita liat" ad yg menarik gak buat jdiin subyekk...
uda mentokk..
balik lagi..

trus ad ibu" gtu jualan barang" tradisionall..
pikiranku: ini lmayan menarikk..
njuk aku ngmng k tmn ku gt sp ak lpaa..
stlah ngmng" sm ibu e..
trnyta dia bkan yg bikin..
nah kita pingin nyari yg bikin aja..
ternyata.
ada ibu" di depan ibu" tadi..
ternyata ibu" yang di depan ibu" yg td itu yg bikin dan lgi nawarin ke ibu" yg njual.
setelah kita tanya..
rumahnya di imogiri..
jauhh..
gak jdi dah..

trus kta jalan lagi..
ada mas" yg bikin ap itu.. lp..

aku: "kez, ini aja pa?"
kez: "jgn.. kurang mesakke.."

okeoke..
trus kita jalan lagi..
sampai di depan pasar bringharjo.
o ya.
itu ujan..

kita masuk..
liat tangga naik..
trus naik..
mpe lantai 3..
isi ne baju tokk..
uda liat" trus turun ke lante 1..
trus nyebrang ke pasar sebrange..
isine makanan..
trus naik..
tetep makanan..
turun lagi..
nyebrang lagi..
keluar deh dari bringharjo..

udah gtu..
kita jalan lagi sampai d benteng vandenberg(nulisnya bnr g sih?)..
akhirnya kita masukk..
aku bru tau msuk situ gak nyampe rp.1000..
hhe.

trus liat" replika" gtu..
2 ruangan..
apik bgt..
menarik jga..
mini..
lucu..

trus kluar dr ruangan ne..
duduk" dulu..
tau tau ad bule..
lewat..
ad org indo jejer e..
kyk e si indo ini pemandu ne dia..
trus kita malah di ajak ngomong sm si bule..
brdasarkan yg sy dengar..
namane jack(kyk e)..
81 tahun..
dr washington..
dia ngmng" macem"..
ttg bhs inggris..
ttg budaya indo..
tp kita yg takut slh cm jawab "yes" sama "thank you"..
wkwkwk..

trus kita liat ada tangga naek..
liat" bentar..
turun..
jejer e tangga ada tangga..
naek tangga yg itu..
liat"..
trus ad bangunan bunder gt..
kt ne jabin sumur..
tp msa sumu 2m lebih gt..
ad bekas pelurune lgi..
merasa ad hawa" gmn gt..
turun lgi..
dan akhirnya mmutuskan kluar dr sna..

trug gtw piye..
kta mlh meh ke taman pintar nek nda taman budaya..
akhirnya dr situ jalan ke arah taman pintar..
liat bus stop..
sempet mikir meh naek bus ke pa ato gale..
tp gak jdi..

uda mpe depan pintu taman pintar..
pikir" lagi..
ngapa d sn..
akhirnya nyebrang lagi..
jalan ke arah alun"..

sampai d deket alun"..
pda laperr..
akhirnya kita maem bakso..
slese makan..
the journey continue..
kita ke sekaten.. (itu sekaten bkn e?)
trus ad tulisan "ular b'kepala manusia"..
weh?

trus kta msuk ke sekaten e..
jalan"..
sp tau ad subyek yang tepat..
stlah mpe pintu kraton(itu kraton kan?)..
pintu ne di tutup..
gak isa masuk keraton..

karena uda pda capek..
hampir mau pulang..
liat becak..
tp si becak tnyata lgi nunggu..
y udah lha..

kita jln ke kanan dr pintu itu..
mentok..
trus liat tuh jalan..
kyk e yg buat shooting "jagad x code"..
persis..
iya.
kyk e bnr..

trus liat tulisan "museum kereta"..

aku: "meh liat po?"
sapagitu: "y gpp.."

akhirnya kita jalan ke arah si museum kereta..
ada kudaa..
tp abu"..
tinggiii bgt..

trus..
kta masuk ke museum..
liat kereta" gtu..
gak bnyk..
mayan menarikk..
ad yg bgus bgt..
tp og buat ngangkut mayatt..
hiyy..

trus kita keluar dr situ..
trus tmnku blg klo td di dlm kyk ad hawa" gak enak gitu..
pemikiranku: itu kereta" uda tua kan? ad baju & topi kusirnya juga kan? wajarr..

trus tau" ada bapak" becakk nawari..
tdnya kita mau pke 2 becak..
padahal uda hom-pim-pah nentuin sp sm sp..
tp akhirnya ber 22..
aku mbe nadia..
jenny mbe kezia..
jabin mbe niko..

udah deh..
becaknya jalan..

trus smpe pathukk..
tau" ad bule..
motret becak yg lgi kita naikin..
pdhal..
sy benci foto!!
huh!
awas tuh pak bule..

smpai akhirnya..
becak kita sampai d halaman sekolah..
halaman luar sekolah...

janny ma niko uda ilang..
ktne jenni trn d prmpatan..
niko d mn gitu aku lupa..
nadia udah d jemput.
jabin naik sepeda..
aku ma kezia masih nunggu jemputan..
kezia sih meh nunut..
rumah e deket..

akhirnya mobil jemputan datang..
nganter aku smpe rmah..

dan itu adalah akhir dari survay a.k.a jalan" kami..
padahal msi gak yakin subyeknya..
tp tdi itu adlah prjalanan yg menyenangkan..
muter"..
mubeng"..
jalan"..

hha..
selanjutnya..
kyk e kita bakal ke monjali deh..
wkwkwk..
b'cnda..


piss, lap, pel!

(",)v

taking chances..

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

gift of a friend..

lgu ne demi lovato..
tp og ptma suarane kyk selena gomez..
mbuh ah..
ni lgu ne apik jga..
ktakta ne jga..
but..
i'm still looking for that 'gift'..
i think i haven't found one yet..


Sometimes You think You'll Be Fine by Yourself
Cause a Dream is a Wish That You Make all alone
Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help
But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

You'll Change Inside
When You Realize
The World Comes To Life
And Everythings Bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty You Are
When You Open Your Heart and
Believe In
The Gift of a Friend
The Gift of a Friend

Someone Who knows When Your Lost and Your Scared
There through The Highs and The Lows
Someone To Count On, Someone Who Cares
Beside You Where Ever You Go

You'll Change Inside
When You Realize
The World Comes To Life
And Everythings Bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty You Are
When You Open Your Heart and
Believe In
The Gift of a Friend

And When Your Hope Crashes Down
Shattering To The Ground
You, You Feel All Alone
When You Dont Know Which Way To Go
And There's No Signs Leading You Home
You're Not Alone

The World Comes To Life
And Everythings Bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty You Are
When You Open Your Heart and
Believe In
When You Believe In
When You Believe In the Gift of a Friend

already gone..

truth..
bbrp..
apik..
keren..
kelly clarkson..
lap dis..


Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone..

come back to me...

slah stu dr lgu nya david cook, american idol season 7 wiener..
lgu ne apik..
kta" ne apik..
tp i don't want 'it' to come back..
i don't know am i lying or not..
q=




You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and I'll let you go, I'll set your free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Come back to me

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

You find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me

i'm sorry..

hri itu..
sbnr e to..
i don't want to treat you bad..
i mean..
that's valentine's day..

tp kepaksa..
gr" ad tmnku(rawrr..)..
y gak nyalahin temenku sih..
aku dewe yg gak isa...
aku payah og..
padahal gampang banget..

aku jdi hrus bohong..
ya...
moga" kamu tau apa -kebo-'ongan ku..
moga" kamu tau kalo kamu itu yang aku omongin(ato ketikin? y itu lah.) d postingan ini..

dr tgl 13 mpe tdi mlm..
aku nunggu...
tp...
ya.
kmu gak ol tiap aku ngecek..
pdhal itu juga aku ol e pake hp..
dan taulah..
xl tuh kalo internetan mayan merosotin pulsa..
wkwkwk..
tp aku gak keberatan nungguin..
itu salahku dewe og..

i just want to say i'm sorry..
i've lied too much to you..


):



p.s.: don't care 'bout my grammar,tenses,or whtev..

yay..!

stlah bbrp hri lptop, tv,dll..
yg ptgptg di sita pap ku gara" telat golf..

akhirnya di balikin..
wkwkwkwk..
tralala trilili senangnbya hati ini..
=p



tp stlah mengalami shock therapy..
hidup tanpa internet yg proper..
i've survived!

tp gak enak bgt..
ol hrus pke hp...
(iya.. hp ku gak jadi ikut disita)

meh chat hrus pke ebuddy..
meh ngecek fb & blog pke hp..
hasil?
pulsa mlorott..

tp i learn something..

klo nyembunyiin..
jgn cuma hp..
laptopnya juga..

wkwk..

ndanda..

jgn telat golf..
atau semua bara" penting akan hilang...


=p


gak ceto ya?
emang..
i'm just too excited..

piss, lap, =p

the other side of the door..

taylor swift's song..
it's a great song..
but..
i hate that this song have to be something that i feel about you..
not with the "throwing pebbles" stuff..

here it is..
the other side of the door..



In the heat of the fight I walked away
Ignoring words that you were saying
Trying to make me stay
I said, 'This time I've had enough'
And you've called a hundred times
But I'm not picking up
Cause I'm so mad I might tell you that it's over
But if you look a little closer

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window throwing pebbles
Screaming, 'I'm in love with you'
Wait there in the pouring rain, come back for more
And don't you leave cause I know
All I need is on the other side of the door

Me and my stupid pride are sitting here alone
Going through the photographs, staring at the phone
I keep going back over things we both said
And I remember the slamming door and all the things that I misread
So babe if you know everything, tell me why you couldn't see
When I left I wanted you to chase after me

Yeah, I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window throwing pebbles
Screaming, 'I'm in love with you'
Wait there in the pouring rain, come back for more
And don't you leave cause I know
All I need is on the other side of the door

And I'll scream out the window
I can't even look at you
I don't need you but I do, I do, I do
I say, "There's nothing you can say to make this right
I mean it, I mean it"
What I mean is

I said, "Leave," but baby all I want is you
To stand outside my window throwing pebbles
Screaming, 'I'm in love with you'
Wait there in the pouring rain, come back for more
And don't you leave cause I know
All I need is on the other side of the door

With your face and the beautiful eyes
And the conversation with the little white lies
And the faded picture of a beautiful night
You carry me from your car to the stairs
And I broke down crying, was she worth this mess?
After everything and that little black dress
After everything I must confess, I need you..